‘Then Moses raised his arm and struck the rock twice with his staff. Water gushed out, and the community and their livestock drank. But the Lord said to Moses and Aaron, “Because you did not trust in me enough to honor me as holy in the sight of the Israelites, you will not bring this community into the land I give them.” ‘
One thing is clear that although Moses did perform a miracle, he was motivated out of anger and this led God to reject Moses and Aaron from entering the Promised Land. One thing that frustration and anger did, was to make the people not look to God as their source but turning their attention to Moses’ frustration. His anger took control and thus surrendering his ability to lead the people. When I get angry for whatever reason, I am forfeiting my ability to lead. I succumb to doing things that are far from bringing glory to God and give in to the thing that made me angry. I know there are times that my anger blazed out against my children and lowered me down to reacting as a child would rather than responding as a parent should. I lose when I give in to anger.
I think the most important thing I need to do is to stop and calm down. I am not one to get easily angered but I know when I have gotten to that point, I release anger that is unsightly and only brings more hurt and pain. Focus is now not on what the issue is but on the hurt and frustration I am experiencing. I should be focusing on how to solve the issue rather than trying to make others experience the pain and anger I am feeling. I think the best thing I can do is to stop and get out to cool off. It is hard but dealing with the aftermath of my anger is a lot harder.
Lord Jesus, I ask that you help me and intervene when I get to a point where I will only hurt others when I am angry. I know that it is a sin and I ask for your forgiveness. Grant me peace in my heart and soul and help me to have your eyes to see solutions beyond the problem. I love you! In Your Name, Jesus. Amen!