‘but he answered his father, ‘Look, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might celebrate with my friends. ‘ Luke 15:29 ESV
The older brother can be likened to us who have been following Christ for years. And over the years we become a little hardened to mercy and love of God. We can become numb to discoveries in the Word and even celebrate on the outside but on the inside, experience nothing or a tinge of jealousy when someone else is blessed. The elder son complained that he had served his father for many years and yet when did his father give him something? We can also easily overlook all the things God has done for us and feel chaffed when God doesn’t bless us the way we would like Him to. We become self-righteous and begin to think we deserve this or that because “Look God at all the time I put into serving you!” We can begin to believe God owes us. I pray that my heart will never become hardened to see His blessings and mercy in my life.
I need to constantly test my heart and see how I celebrate and react to times where others are blessed and it seems my prayers are not being answered. I know that there are times where I have felt left out and deserved to be blessed like someone else. I asked God, “Why am I not being blessed like so and so?” But it isn’t that God is favoring someone over myself, rather it is how a father shows his love to someone who is in need of it. It doesn’t mean I am not loved, nor thought about. It would be selfish of me to think I should get all of the blessings and care.
Jesus, I know in Psalm 7 it said you test the minds and hearts of man. I ask that you send up alerts to me when you test me and my heart is in the wrong place and my thoughts are not glorifying You. I know there are times where my heart got hard because I felt left out, but I ask that you also remind me that I am loved and thought of by You. Thank you for blessing me and caring for me! Thank you for loving such an unworthy son like me. Thank you, Jesus, that through your sacrifice, I am made worthy in the Father’s eyes! I love you! In Jesus’ mighty Name. Amen!