Later in this story, God is upset with Balaam because he went with the leaders of Moab to see Balak. However, it says “IF the men come to call you, rise up and go with them;” but Balaam missed the big IF. He had it set within his heart to go with the men for his own financial gain and not for God’s glory, so he “arose in the morning, and saddled his donkey and went.” God tested Balam’s heart to see for what reason he was going to Balak. Because Balaam went BEFORE he was asked by the men, God knew his motives.
Like Balaam, we too can mislead ourselves and think that we are listening to God when in actuality we are listening to what we want to hear. We can misread and hear only what we want, even when God is talking to us! We all have needs and wants that God already knows before we even ask. So in our prayers, we need to learn to lay aside our motives and wants to be able to listen carefully. I know I have fallen to this many times especially when listening to my kids. I think I am listening but I am already thinking about solutions or what I want to do, even before listening to the full story. The opposite also happens when my kids want something and ask me. I answer them but they only hear the part that they want. God already knows what I want and I need to trust him enough to listen to what He has to say and in His leading. I still need to learn to put aside my wants and desires for His.
Lord Jesus, thank you for your patience with me when I only have my wants and desires in mind. I choose to learn how to set aside my wants and needs to hear you clearly when you direct me. I do ask for your strength to be able to do this all to bring You glory and to see your will done in my life. I love you! In your Name Jesus. Amen!